Darko reminded me that when it rains, it pours. The volleyball championship of last week was the highlight of the month, but everything else has pretty much sucked. Thankfully the spring season starts up again this Thursday. I have a clear slate this week: no work functions, no work dinners, no dates, no anything except vball. I need to refocus and get back to the ultra focused mindset I had back in January. I've let things slip and I hate it. The drinking has gotten way out of hand. I remember Darko texting me on Friday night and at the time I was somewhere on the Upper West Side with 3 peeps. I txt'd back that I had screwed up on something. He naturally replied back with "idiot!" I was kidding of course. However, I did reply back to his txt with "I'm an alcoholic." It's a slow death I tell ya and it's always been hard for me. I saw a quick blurb today that kids who start drinking b4 14yo have a 4x higher chance of becoming an alcoholic. I started at 15 when I first went to Europe, so I guess I had a 3.8x higher chance of becoming an alcoholic. I'm not blaming my issues on alcohol because it hasn't effected my work performance nor performance elsewhere. It has on occasion hurt my workouts because some days I don't go as hard or I skip the routine entirely.
Bottom line is that I need to get back to focusing on work and working out. A girl yesterday advised me to stay away from women. Not sure if that's a solution but I think more discipline is really what I need.
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